The San Pedro Elks Lodge, a community landmark and social hub for nearly 50 years, was virtually destroyed early Tuesday in a greater-alarm fire that may have been deliberately set…
Early yesterday morning the San Pedro Elks Lodge burnt down. This is where I spent summers at the pool. This is where we went to silly holiday parties for kids to see Santa and the Easter Bunny. During my brief stint as a girl scout the lodge was one of our major sponsors and we would bus tables once a month. This is where I first sat at a bar and ordered a drink. While Jerome was in basic training and AIT, Dad and I would come once a week for dance lessons…
I grew up at this lodge as did a lot of other people in San Pedro. As the article says, just about everyone in town has been there at some point or another. It’s not hard to understand why so many people were so upset at this news that they had to go an see the damage for themselves. (My Dad and Jerome’s stepdad were included in that crowd.)
As of right now, it doesn’t look like I will be able to go back to San Pedro any time soon, but maybe by the time I get there the new Elks will be up and I look forward to seeing what they do with the space.
1) Someone offended me deeply and I can’t figure out how to address it with minimal drama. My brain seems unhappy that I can’t think of a solution, so it keeps trying over and over…
2) I need to cut someone (else) out of my life and I don’t know how to do that either, though a natural end to the friendship (if you can call it that) seems to be coming within a year. (They and/or we will most likely be moving within the year.) In the mean time it doesn’t feel right to hold in my problems with this person, but when I vent to anyone about it it’s like a continuous loop I can’t stop even when I’m done talking. That’s not healthy either. I mentioned this to the therapist when I had one but it never got addressed. I am sitting here getting more and more upset and just unable to stop. Regular zoning out techniques aren’t worming. At this rate I will still be up when the alarm goes off.
I just really would like to go to sleep and not have to think about ANYTHING.
-Peach was twerking in her sleep, but by the time I noticed and pulled up the camera to get video, she stopped. (That’s the second time tonight she stopped doing something when I tried to take a picture.). I think she was running in her dream and her legs just weren’t in the right position to twitch properly so only her butt moved.
-Remember the other day when I kept waking up to look for Olive? Tonight Olive keeps waking up and looking for us.
-I’m glad I’m not sleeping because Jerome is tossing and turning so bad I’m sure I would wake up. :(
-I’m kind of upset I’m not sleeping ‘cause I’m really tired from my adventures today…well, yesterday, really.
-In a joking voice I asked who was laying on my pillows and messed up my blanket, but Kiwi got all guilty looking anyway and now she won’t come back on the bed. She is sleeping on the floor using one of Jerome’s boots as a pillow.
-Why am I up? Partially insomnia, but mostly trying to use my not sleeping to our advantage. Jerome had to do Reserves stuff today, then came home and had a short nap before working late night at [electronics store] doing inventory, so he’s having a long nap now, then he has to be up at 6am for a phone interview (everyone cross your fingers he gets the job!) at 7am, AND THEN, he has to be back at [electronics store] at 10am for his regular shift. I am up to make absolutely sure that he gets up, my light sleeping works to his heavy sleeping advantage. (But only very rarely does it work the other way around.)
-Thankfully, Jerome has tomorrow off. Bets on how long he’ll sleep?
-ONLY ONE MORE HOUR! I bet then I won’t be able to sleep.
I feel like there’s an anxiety attack just below the surface that’s waiting for the right moment.
Yes, there’s loads of stress and things haven’t exactly gone my way for a few days, but I thought I was handling it all pretty well! No excess anxiety, no depression seeping in, no panic/anxiety attacks, no dwelling on problems, mostly productive and healthy discussions instead of arguments…
But I guess something is not right? Or my brain thinks I’m going to mess up?
I have felt like this before but for some reason it didn’t occur to me that thinking you know an attack is coming may just lead to not so great things…like getting so nervous the attack is coming that you have an anxiety attack…and then not knowing if that was the one you were waiting for so the cycle repeats…
Currently have minimal insurance and no therapist, so here’s me trying to work it out on my own…or failing that, writing it down to work on when I do have a therapist again.
…Or you know, lack of sleep could be playing a part here…it’s been known to do that.
Thanks for sending all those good thoughts our way! First phone interview is on Friday! Please please please let it work out!
I had too many free refills at Starbucks, now I can feel my eyeballs. Pretty sure they will be able to shoot lazers soon. >.>
Oh! I actually WON at Scrabble today! That rarely happens with Jerome and Mom ‘cause they’re both word wizards or something.
Really want to make this! I think it would go great with my blazer! But I want to make it in magenta sparkly yarn…which I don’t have and don’t have money to get. Not sure how much yarn it takes, but I might try with this one skein I have…but I think the color was discontinued, so if it’s not enough I’ll be stuck unraveling.
I would also like to make an infinity scarf…but all the patterns I’ve seen are pretty wintery…plus there’s that whole no yarn money thing.
You know the meme, you know the rules, if you’ve been around a while, you know I don’t follow the rules ‘cause it makes me nervous, but I will gladly answer questions.
Actually, thewhaleridingvulcan tagged my reblog dump account, wolfisquee but this doesn’t belong there. (Actually I don’t check notes or anything there, so if I didn’t see it on the dash, I wouldn’t have known!) She follows both anyway, right?
Anyway, on with the questions!
Coke or Pepsi? Pepsi if it’s regular, Coke if it’s diet.
Favorite flowers? Daisies.
Do you like Easter Egg Hunts? Well, it’s been a long time since I participated in one, but I used to. Now I more enjoy looking for Hidden Mickeys.
Favorite color? Pink! Followed closely by yellow.
Do you collect anything? Postcards! I have two small boxes full. Several are even from fellow Tumblrers!
Favorite animal? All the dogs. All of them.
Do you have pets? Three dogs, Peach, Kiwi, and Olive. One cat, Blueberry. One guinea pig, Popcorn. One rabbit, Cadbury. And one parakeet, Barbecue (formerly Lemon.)
I finally decided to have some Triscuits and then they tried to kill me. I’m okay now.
Yes, I was eating Triscuits and cheese and apples AGAIN. Sometimes I want to eat the same thing over and over.
I have one confirmed case of an ask being eaten by the Tumblbeasts. I suspect several more. If you think you should have heard from me in the last few weeks, I bet you Tumblr ate either your message to me or mine back to you.
Curse my inability to put down a bad book. I am in the middle of bad book 2 of 3…and I know I will go on to the third one too. Ugh. Trying to power through them now rather than avoid.
After all day of not wanting to eat anything even though I was hungry, now I want loads of junk food even though I’m not hungry. Good thing we don’t have any of the kinds I want on hand!
Again I have the sleepies in the late afternoon. Why can’t they hang around til bedtime…or even in the morning? I will accept morning sleeps! Afternoon sleeps throw everything off too much. On the other hand, some sleeps are better than no sleeps…
I can’t remember what 7 was because I am now having a hard time keeping my eyes open…maybe just a little nap in the chair…
Really tired, but 4pm is a really bad time for a nap.
The dogs have been sharking around me for a while because there’s peanut butter on my desk. (Left over from a snack…I just haven’t taken the dish to the sink.)
We’re going to attempt to improvise shrimp wontons tonight. We’ve done it before, but it’s been a really long time. Wish us luck!
I got a bitter batch of lemons, so I’m trying to fix up my lemon juice drink with a splash of pomegranate cherry juice. It helps a little, but I think if I actually put enough in to make it taste decent it would get too expensive quickly.
Speaking of too expensive, I miss avocados. I can’t figure out a way to buy them cheaply enough/eat them fast enough. I’ll wait for a sale, I guess.
My nose still itches. I think I’m allergic to spring. D: